Ass-ignments

Is it just me or designing the interior of an apartment is super stressful? Deciding every detail, picking every piece of furniture but still considering how each of the items match to each other (dont forget the colours). How it has to combine perfectly with the flooring and wall materials that you've chosen. Combining all of those elements with your client's personality. Deciding where to put all the lightings and ceiling plans. If I had to choose an icon from yahoo messenger, it'd be AT WITS END! Just tell me, is it just me or do every to-be-designer feel the same way? And by the way, this is just the beginning, the first big assignment (and i'm already whining)

Remind me to buy this partition for my future home (YEAH RIGHT IT'S FREAKIN $3,600)

I've always wanted one of these wardrobes. I guess it's just simple like there's no need opening the doors and ofcourse, I can always see my clothes anytime haha i know right --> what a freak.

So yeah, this particular dream of mine was crushed by the fact that at my place where I live, the weather's not so friendly. Talk about the heavy pollution! All I remember is my mom saying it over and over again "No, there would be no point in washing your clothes anymore, because it would be dusty anyway" WHAT A BUMMER!

Moving on.....

As you can guess, I want this vintage-suitcase-storage. My definition of cool :)

OK ENOUGH, GOTTA GET BACK TO WORK!

Quote of the day: "Trying is tiring but it is the only way to succeed."

Future

Will I make my parents proud until the end?

Will I be able to give back as much as they've given me?

Will I be what i've always wanted to be in life?

Will it work out well for me?

Will I find that someone i've always wanted?

Will I get the specific one?

Will I be as happy as my aunt, who has the perfect family, a loving husband with 2 beautiful childs. A girl who's still very small yet smart enough she hangs out with people far from her own age, and a baby boy who's as handsome as his father.

Will I get a husband who loves his kids, just like my father? The man who worries too much about making us happy, who listens to every problems we have even the stupidest ones and never laughs or looks down on it, who made me realize that being overprotective comes out of love.

For all the criticisms I've made over my friends' boyfriends, will I myself have the perfect relationship?

For all the criticisms I've made over divorced celebrities or sluts who steals peoples' bastards, will I have the perfect marriage?

For all the criticisms I've made over gays and such, will I have a perfectly straight child?

Will I grow up to be known and respected, like my grandfather? Someone who's still remembered even after years of death.

Will I grow up and still be independent even after my husband dies, like my grandmother? Will I be as loving as her? Will I be her? She who made me realize how painful it felt to lose the one you really love.

Will I have grandchildrens who'd love me soooo much, just as much as I loved mine? Will they miss me just as much as I miss mine? Will I still be in their heart even when I'm gone? Will they pray me heaven? So I can meet mine.....

Will I get my happy ending in and after life?

So the feeling's sad today. I haven't dealt with death in a while but someone from my big family is suffering right now. I love how everyone is gathered to give him support, but I hate watching someone going through a lot of pain. I hate to see the victim's kids faces who in the end cant do anything but pray, I hate why people have to be sick. I hate why people can't just die calmly, without screaming and crying over their pain. I hate to see the process.

So I began to imagine, what if I was watching the person I really loved going through the same exact thing? What if I was there? What if I don't want to? What if I cant? Does that mean I dont care?

Quote of the day:
"May you live to be 100, and me, 100, but minus a day so I'll never know beautiful people like you have passed away" -Rachel Getting Married

How Warm

help me imagine... so i'm living in Italy making money since i've been working there for years as an interior designer. wait, winter's coming it's going to be cold. what would i buy?

absolutely t-totally these.

Quote of the day:

"Don't be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams."

Wanting

I WANT THE JUMPSUIT

I WANT THE MAXI VEST

I WANT THE DRESS

I WANT THE JACKET

Cardigans

Is This Love?

HELL YEAH!

FROM ALL THE LOOKS I'VE SEEN, THIS IS THE ONLY ONE I WANT TO WEAR COMPLETELY FROM TOP TO BOTTOM. SERIOUSLY I'M IN LOVE.

Simply Want You

you invade my dreams,

camp out in the corners of my mind,

and occupy my heart.

(and that makes me happy)

Break a Silence

• I love driving with an empty mind going absolutely anywhere the road brings me, singing along with my recently favourite cd while eating favourite meals. It is the perfect multi-tasking ever. And the best part: a full load in the tank!
• I have everything that I could possibly want and need. I always think I'm born spoiled but I'm cautious anyway and grateful for it all. There's just ONE thing though, one thing that's just too hard to get. The very one thing I want right here right now, it's HIM. only HIM, really. Well whoever made the quote "Money can't buy you love" is a genius. Can't buy you happiness either :)

But a friend of mine found a quote which says:

“Whoever said money can't buy happiness simply didn't know where to go shopping.”

ROTFLMAO!!

and another one:

Money isn’t everything but it ranks right up there with oxygen - Rita Davenport

Oh well, still no one can be bought, right? He probably would be the most expensive thing I've ever wan't if he was an object, yes he would be that worthy.

• A friend of mine got me stuck with this song I'm listening over and over lately. Damn, it's haunting me, crawling under my skin. Have you found a song that's just so you? Haha I don't care how cheesy I might sound, but I found mine. Love the singer too!

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me

I wanna touch and hold you forever

But you’re still in my dream

I used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized

I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”

And I never thought that I’m so strong

I stuck on you and wait so long

but when love comes it can’t be wrong

Don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want

• My mom buys me all these interior design books I want including imported ones, but she doesn't know I have the lowest grade in class. You think I want low grades? All my life I've been thinking this is the perfect major for me, and now I'm failing.
• I looooove being alone, you don't have to care about anything, seriously. You don't have to care about anyone's feelings, you don't have to talk about feelings, you don't have to care about your actions, especially the consequences. Ah my room is my kingdom.
• I wouldn't trade my parents for anyone else's, I love them and that's that.
• My best listeners, my favourite people, the people on my speed-dial: Bokyung Lee, Ridhwan Rasid, Dean Mutia, Ardiyasa Faundra, Diza Diandra and Teuku Mirza (the people I would never ever ever take for granted anymore)

Nowaday Life

Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Soda becomes vodka. Kisses turn into sex. And that's how we grow up.

I found this from one of my friend's status in facebook ofcourse. Got me thinking... well it's true. I'm not dumb or innocent, atleast I know what's going on. Alhamdulillah I'm not close to any of those bold words up there. I have to admit I'm scared because you never know what tomorrow will bring you. I never knew that one day people would only define you 'COOL' by doing or tasting all those stuff. I never knew that those kind of stuff would be a daily thing to some people. I never knew that today I'd be near one of those people. I never knew coming home late night would be cool too. I never knew that going out on a saturday night would be a must-thing to do. Call me conservative, I dont mind.

Burn!

Pernah ngga pulang ke rumah tapi nyesel udah pulang?

Haha ngga segitunya sih tapi kemaren pulang-pulang langsung ditanya
"udah punya pacar blum?"

seriously burn down the question for bidden sake, let me breathe!
i know i'll find someone someday, someone me and my parents would love to death

minggu lalu dengerin ceramah pas sepupu nikah
ustad bilang "ada kenalan saya pergi keluar negri demi nyari jodoh, udah bertahun-tahun disana pulangnya ngga bawa siapa-siapa. Eh pas udah disini, dia naik angkot dan ngobrol sama perempuan disebelahnya, taunya cocok dan akhirnya nikah. Jadi inti dan hikmah dari cerita ini adalah sering-seringlah naik angkot, kalau mau cepet nemu jodoh."

ibu yang kebetulan duduk disebelah ketawa-ketawa terus nyeletuk "tuh pril"
and i gave her the straightest expression of my straight-faced look

Gotta Love Mary

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