Hope

I need someone to look me in the eyes and just tell me
.... that everything's gonna be ok
.... that I can make it without worrying too much
.... that I shouldn't care of every judgements
.... that I shouldn't let anyone ruin my day
.... that I should never ever cry, ever
.... that I am more than just enough

I need you, stranger. Whoever in this planet you may be.

Stuck

you and your style.

me and my obsession.

WHEN WILL IT EVER END?

Drool

How sick is this house plan parquet flooring? and it's actually real.

How lovely is this room? and the tiles could actually be arranged.

This is why, yes this is why I keep holding on to what I do.

DRS,

I remain affectionately yours.

Let's Learn

Inspirational quotes from inspirational people.

"Berpikir sebaliknya. Kalau Anda sakit hati, Anda hanya kehilangan orang yang tidak mencintai Anda, tetapi dia telah kehilangan orang yang betul-betul mencintainya." -UJ

"Misal, jika Anda berdoa untuk diberikan kesabaran oleh Allah SWT dan merasa tidak dijawab secara langsung, Anda salah. Anda merasa setelah Anda berdoa, Anda diberi kesulitan/kejadian yang membuat Anda kesal dan langsung marah seolah-olah Allah memberi jawaban yang sebaliknya. Sebenarnya itulah jawaban dari Allah. Allah menjadikan kalian orang yang sabar dengan memberikan Anda kesulitan atau mempertemukan Anda dengan orang yang menjengkelkan. Dengan pemberian itulah, Allah memberikan kesempatan bagi Anda untuk melatih kesabaran tersebut." -Mario Teguh


Teach me more and more and more and more!

The Letter

A lovely letter from a lovely movie.


"Dear Claire,

"What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together, side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.
"What if?"
"What if?"
"What if?"
I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was "true love", then it's never too late. If it were true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliets' feels like; a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for. But I'd like to believe if I were ever to feel it, that I'd have the courage to seize it. And Claire if you didn't, I hope one day that you will.

All my love,
Juliet."

Right after watching this movie, I just want to be a better writer. Who knows one day I'll be writing for a (interior) magazine? I actually feel very honored that a friend of mine offered me to write for his online magazine, I hope it'll be a beginning, a good start. Who knows it's my unknown passion. I'll definitely keep practicing, arranging my words better. Wish me luck!

Work it

I can imagine growing up and going to work would be fun...
The dresses, blazers, cardigans, scarfs, skirts, necklaces, high heels, handbags... last but not least, my own personal income :)

D for Disease

this post is about boys... again. I cant help it!

I've always had a thing for javanese boys.... maybe i have the same taste as my grandma :) they always seem to fit my criteria --> smart, hard-working, ambitious, religious, funny, down-to-earth, polite... and maybe thats why my grandma loved my javanese grandpa, oh i wish i'd knew him longer!
and yes, i have a list just like hillary duff in her latest movie 'beauty and the briefcase' but my list actually makes more sense, hehe.
Funny thing my mom has the same taste as mine (no i dont mean my dad hehe), and we both like duta sheila on 7 :) he's a real charm, gets us exited everytime we see him on television.
ah I guess the javanese taste is in our blood anyway.
and i've been liking boys whose names starts with 'd'. my grandpa's name also starts with 'd'. Oh no, is this a coincidence?
Haha well u know girls, a typical girl likes to hunt for signs, and sometimes its super unimportant and meaningless, but still.. i'll take it as a sign, not like it's a crime or anything, hehe.. call me stubborn, or desperate? i dont care. Not everyone has a smooth road in relationships. A girl can always dream, right?
Anyway, you can watch "He's just not that into you" to know what I mean :)

Deadline

At first, I thought it was a joke.. and now that it's getting worst, it's not funny anymore. Kill me with what-ifs.. because you're so freakin good at it. I hate your guts... Where are you when I need you? Please come faster than a McDonald delivery.

Lovefool

some lyrics that caught my ears on the way home...

"Still everyday I think about you
I know for a fact that’s not your problem
But if you change your mind you’ll find me
Hanging on to the place
Where the big blue sky collapse" Adhitia Sofyan

"My love it means nothing to you
So maybe I'm still a love Fool
You're my love foolosophy
Don't you see it's killing me

I don't want the world I want you... " Jamiroquai

"Too much of something is bad enough,
But something's coming over me to make me wonder,
Too much of nothing is just as tough,
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied" Spice Girls


P.S:

Off-limit

people are so dissapointing lately.. but i'm no better so I guess what goes around really comes back around, does it? Speaking of which, who made that genius brilliantly realistic line? Justin Timberlake? but how can someone cute be a genius at the same time? umm..whatever.

so as i was saying, how can someone judge me when they dont even know me? how can someone be pissed off over some small shit i did when they havent even done anything good to me either? how can your own so-called bestfriend hurt you in every kind of way? how can your own so-called bestfriend act as if nothing have ever happened? and why am still calling that person my bestfriend?!

Daydream

Such a good idea, instead of having only my kids' clothes matched to each other, i'll have mine matched to theirs too :)

New Start

So maybe my 2010 resolution would be to like available boys instead of taken ones hahaha whatever.. i'm done dealing with these kind of scenes, like beyonce.. i dont want to be the broken hearted girl, i dont want to play that part. oh well i should've known better....

Strong Like

I want someone to love me
for who I am.
I want someone to need me.
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
but it's all I have.
I want someone to love me
for who I am.

P.S: THERE'S SOMETHING THAT MAKES JASON SOUND LIKE THE JO BRO

Prayers

they say your friends in college will be your friends for life. i guess i'll have to wait and see, but i really hope our friendship will last a lifetime. maybe somewhere between the middle we'll even end up looking like this on the street. yes, somewhere in europe, haha (read:amin).

diza and dhea the fashion designer and me the interior designer
amiiiiin......

where'd the days go

when all we did was play
and the stress that we were under
wasn't stress at all
just a run and the jump
into a harmless fall