Can't Help Myself

there's so many thing i've learned nowadays it's not even funny

you try to open your eyes a little, and there you see many unexpectable things

you try to not care about it, but it stays there right in front of your innocent eyes

i've learned that it's not always about you

to live you've got to understand others

you can't always demand them to do the same way

you just have to be patient

people are people and sometimes they change their minds

then all you can do is let them be

i know this sounds sad

that i've been eager for this whole makeover

when the boy goes off asking out another girl

when i'm here thinking

well there's nothing else i can possibly do

what, to catch him still?

i would, i don't care what people think

because he is a real catch

he is what i've always wanted

there's one thing though

she's cheer captain and i'm on the bleachers

hahaha

i know i fall too easy sometimes

but they're all typical, they're all the same

they won me by charisma, the quality of their brains

not so easy to find you got to admit

i know i don't say much

show any emotions whatsoever

that's why when all the girls are tossing rocks at your window

i'd be here waiting even if it's cold

still i can't remember how many people i've told

but its the criticism and support that i love so much

you tend to suck it all in because you're just so eager

eager for him to notice, eager for him to realize

they tell me different things, mostly good alhamdulillah

and eventhough there are little bumps in the road

they tell me to keep on keeping on

nothing soothes me more than to hear people say that i deserve what i want

everyday i pray to be given the best for me and for God

but holy month's over, when i thought prayers worked better

does that mean he's not best for me too?

when i'm so naive thinking he's nothing but perfect

well who am I to say, ofcourse God knows best!

when all i wanted was to be wanted

i guess He's still asking me to wait

I messaged my ex

asking for forgiveness since its lebaran

just wondering if it could erase all the karma

or maybe karma is just in my head

i dont know, i just want to start another story

P.S: once i had a crush on this boy who was smart and all, but figured out he talked about people behind their back. WOW how it turned down the feeling. I mean seriously, that's what GIRLS do come on!