Can't Help Myself

there's so many thing i've learned nowadays it's not even funny

you try to open your eyes a little, and there you see many unexpectable things

you try to not care about it, but it stays there right in front of your innocent eyes

i've learned that it's not always about you

to live you've got to understand others

you can't always demand them to do the same way

you just have to be patient

people are people and sometimes they change their minds

then all you can do is let them be

i know this sounds sad

that i've been eager for this whole makeover

when the boy goes off asking out another girl

when i'm here thinking

well there's nothing else i can possibly do

what, to catch him still?

i would, i don't care what people think

because he is a real catch

he is what i've always wanted

there's one thing though

she's cheer captain and i'm on the bleachers

hahaha

i know i fall too easy sometimes

but they're all typical, they're all the same

they won me by charisma, the quality of their brains

not so easy to find you got to admit

i know i don't say much

show any emotions whatsoever

that's why when all the girls are tossing rocks at your window

i'd be here waiting even if it's cold

still i can't remember how many people i've told

but its the criticism and support that i love so much

you tend to suck it all in because you're just so eager

eager for him to notice, eager for him to realize

they tell me different things, mostly good alhamdulillah

and eventhough there are little bumps in the road

they tell me to keep on keeping on

nothing soothes me more than to hear people say that i deserve what i want

everyday i pray to be given the best for me and for God

but holy month's over, when i thought prayers worked better

does that mean he's not best for me too?

when i'm so naive thinking he's nothing but perfect

well who am I to say, ofcourse God knows best!

when all i wanted was to be wanted

i guess He's still asking me to wait

I messaged my ex

asking for forgiveness since its lebaran

just wondering if it could erase all the karma

or maybe karma is just in my head

i dont know, i just want to start another story

P.S: once i had a crush on this boy who was smart and all, but figured out he talked about people behind their back. WOW how it turned down the feeling. I mean seriously, that's what GIRLS do come on!

Nothing but the Truth

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.